ELEGANT CHIC

I feel helpless and hopeless at the whim of external forces around me. I feel pushed and pulled in all directions by people who think they know the direction that's best for me.

And, at times, I feel as if I had been punched in the stomach, ARGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!.

I find myself saying yes when I wish I had the courage to say NO, and no when I really wish I had the confidence to say YES. I really really wish if I could be more assertive!

And, worst of all, I feel suffocated bcoz of my family. 3 years of verbal abuse, anger, tension, hatred, anxiety, depression, and no freedom... I have had it all enough!!!

I suffered all these just bcoz I loved a person!!! Can you believe that??!!?? Yes, just because I fell in love with my best buddy.

I want to get out through this difficult time and focus on the positive, and no matter what, I will be his wife! Did you hear that you bloody stinking relatives- I WILL BE HIS WIFE!!!

My job – the only freedom I had – financial crisis robbed me. The officials blame the crisis, but God only knows the nasty games played by people who lick the boss' ass. You won't get away, you fat scoundrel!!!

Not at all easy to let go of resentments or anger, I know.

Gone are those days when I felt energized, vibrant and focused… All these have left me dull! I really really need a boost to my sense of empowerment, self-esteem and self-confidence.

AND IT'S NEVER TOO late! Its never too late to come out of the cold.  My life is in my hands, in my state of mind and in my attitude! 

 

I will celebrate my uniqueness, for, quite simply – I'm extraordinary!

 

Goodbye to sweaty palms and shaky knees.  

 

No more cringing, creeping or slinking into my room.

 

No more shooting furtive, envious glances at others who have 'made it in life.'

 

It's time to straighten my back and stiffen my spine.

 

God, give me resilience and strength so that I can tackle any challenges that I have to face in my life.

 

Tuning into my own gut feelings and trusting that the universe will take care of me… 

 

"I have confidence in sunshine, I have confidence in rain.

I have confidence that spring will come again.

But above all, I have confidence, confidence in me."